by Stefany J. Jones on Thursday, July 20, 2020, at 7:00 pm
Every day of my life has been met with a lesson and learning. My ability to recognize them and invariably my aptitude to be able to successfully “deal” with the manageability (is that a word??? LOL) of them all has not been without consequence nor benefit.
I AM beginning to change my perspective on so very many things, and I AM loving the journey I must say. It’s great to see how I ‘bounce back’ quicker and quicker than ever before when challenges present themselves. Oh sure, in my human and self aspects of who I am, I may ‘react,’ ‘feel away’, or even have some level of difficulty when needing to ‘deal’ or ‘handle’ some situations. However, I AM grateful that my TURNAROUND time, if you will, is happening sooner rather than later as in times past.
What would have previously taken maybe months for me to get over is finding closure within a span of just a few weeks and remarkably in some cases only a few days? What I AM looking to RESUME is that state of PERFECT PEACE that I was gifted when I awoke from that coma. I’ve been on a search for that SPACE and PLACE for almost nine years, and I can feel it getting closer and closer.
The Bible says that if we draw nigh unto God, He will draw nigh unto us. I know that euphoric high of PERFECT PEACE that I have sought as if it were a drug and my life depended on it, really is in my world. My almighty and powerful Father/Daughter relationship with my creator is like a drug, a must-have, an absolute ‘CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT,’ and I don’t intend to live without it. I’ve learned a lot as a result of running from the chasing of my destiny and just as much as the chasing to it once I realized what I was missing.
The moment MY PERFECT PEACE began to fade, I realized that it was something I didn’t want to live without. I realized that allowing the HAPPENINGS of my life to govern IT’s PRESENCE in me was the biggest mistake I could ever make. I was both persistent and willing to surrender all of the power within me and virtually hand it over on a silver platter as a result of my ignorance. But heh, you know how Oprah and Maya feel…when you KNOW better, you DO better.
Well, I AM always personally looking for ways to DO better, so I try to KNOW more. I enjoy using the world as my school for thought and passion. I love learning from witnessing the behavior of others, and myself as a result of certain stimuli.
I AM finding out with each NEW day, NEW trip itinerary, and NEW seed that the possibilities are indeed infinite and the abundancy of the Kingdom of God and all its righteousness is the only DESTINATION COURSE I chart for myself and the alone I desire to pursue.
I believe, for me, I have FINALLY cracked the code to my existence. I now KNOW that I KNOW that I KNOW… I KNOW what I KNOW what I KNOW… I AM that I AM that I AM. I WILL BE who I WILL BE. I AM finding that the more I allow God to do the cleanup IN me, the less cleaning up He has to do FOR me. Now that I have arrived, I AM never turning back!